my independence...:) and my new phone..hehehehe

i have a beautiful handphone..i have an amazing boyfren...im so hapie.......

this is a pic which i took from my new phone..:) i look like crap but cheryl looks nice (as always)
so people..frens, relatives, foes and pencuri handphones..yes, i am the owner of a very gempak sony ericsson S500i..its utterly gorgeous..and my utterly amazing boyfren bought it for me as an early birthday gift:) im so hapie..im so hapie..im so hapie...and yes, im so hapie..:)

this time im sitting at secret recipe SS2. eating fish n chips, drinking ice-lemon tea and awaiting the arival of my carrot slice:) yum...:) charles is on his way to Bali...:( bitting my lips and trying so hard to be this strong independent girlfren..but u and i both know the truth..u cant help but miss ur boyfren when he's miles away..:( no matter how much of a girl power supporter are u, no matter how independent u r, no matter how capable u r at being alone...deep down u wish ur loved-one is there beside u...:)

charles has often told me that i shuld learn to do things by myself..and not be so dependent on my frens and of course on him as well..and 2 b honest im not so much as the type that would have a meal by myself in a restaurant.i have gone for shoppings by myself but tats coz i think and decide better by myself.frens and family around me especially during christmas shopping is a total no-no as i end up getting frustrated and being very indecisive!

so anyway, back to the matter at hand..can i really be independent? well, i seem to shock myself..this past year..to be exact, ever since i started my research, i have been nothing but alone..(and lonely la..*sigh*) and now ive come to the extend where i feel like i actually dunt mind having a meal alone, going window shopping or the actual shopping, checking out mph for books, shoe-shopping, etc...

all i need is cash, credit card and my laptop (if the place where im going has internet access)...so charles, u better be damn proud of me coz i dunt bug u as much as i use..:) i have yet to achieve the height of independence which is going for a movie 'alone'..just typing this sentence out is giving me the chills...:( i think i am very far from achieving tat la..and plus, i seriously do not want to achieve tat kinda independence...its too cold and lonely...