confused

im new at this. i don't even know what im doing. i hate this. HELP!!!!

i received this email from my student:

" Ms.Geradline i remember you telling us that cobras can see in the dark. What if i cover myself with mud would the cobra still be able to see me? "

being a biology lecturer somehow gives my students the thumbs up to ask me all sorts of weird questions. me being all for the idea of (you can ask me anything under the sun) have so far tried my very very best to answer to all their queries.

And to add on to all of that i seem to be their go-to-person when they have problems with their friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, family (& the list goes on). which is a good thing as they somehow see me as their confidante.

This is a little incident which took place during one of my lectures on AIDS

Me : so, the gay community in San Fransisco started showing symptoms of HIV & it was discovered that it was because they were having anal intercourse & having multiple partners thus transmitting the virus.
(students looking blur..)

Me : errrmm...you do know what is anal intercourse rite?
(my naiive innocent students looking blur)

Me : well..it is blah..blah..blah..(blush blush blush)
(students laughing their heads off at my reaction)

Me : grow up la people!

of the past, present & future..

its a brand new year
new chances
new experiences
new beginnings

2008 made me..
single, wiser & a pessimist

2008 taught me..
to believe in the almighty.
to have faith & trust in him & only him
to believe in myself

2008 was..
the year i became a lecturer
the year i became a Master's holder
the year i knew i should trust no one
the year i cried the most

2009 will be a good year because..
i will travel
i will create opportunities
i will make a difference in my life
i will start taking care of myself
i will find a way to forget u...

i attended a creative writing workshop & realised that..

1) there are so many Malaysians who are serious about writing books
2) they are in a league of their own. im no where compared to them
3) there are silly ignorant people out there who do not know that a Christian can still wear a 'pottu' . BODOH
4) there arent any cute guys who can write:(
5) i can never sit still in a workshop. im so fidgety and my mind starts wondering..

im going for Latin dancing & realised that...

1) i CANNOT shake my hips !
2) im too technical. i need to be given clear instructions before i can dance..
3) i look like a plank moving from the right to the left :( oh..so sad..
4) there arent many men who can lead & dance..so says the dancing teacher..who is a man :)
5) my legs dont hurt anymore and i seem to get the hang of it..
6) im begining to like dancing:) which is odd for a person who cant shake her hips..hehehe..

i went clubbing with Teoh &...

1) we are sad boring people
2) we drink silly colourful mocktails
3) we gossip way too much.
4) she didnt think that any guy would have the guts to approach her :)
5) she got chatted up by a drunk fat guy :) she gave the most terrfied look to him and we bolted when he spilled his beer all over our table..hahaha..
6) a 20 year old guy asked for her number because he was dared by his frens...hehehe..

if i were a boy...

A song by Beyonce..an AMAZING SONG..and yes, i only knew about this song coz of Cheryl (the one that claims to be oh so wise..)..thanks Cheryl Beryl...


If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.


If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell evveryone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)


It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

lecturing sleep-deprived students...

listening : Samsons - kenangan indah
reading : Catherine alliot - not that kind of girl
feeling : lazy (as always)

im teaching Biology for A-levels students. im trying to make class as interesting as possible. i now appreciate all my lecturer's efforts to keep the class awake. its no joke people..i have a bunch of sleepy-heads in my class. its as if they're on sleeping pills whenever they come to my class. not all of them though, just a handfull la..but its enuf to keep me on my feet to constantly come up with ways to make the class interesting.

so anyway, ive done many many activities in class just to make the class interesting. im not that bad of a lecturer. i know im good. its just that sometimes, i just wish im not like every other lecturer. u know, those boring ones we had in Uni who are monotonous, sleepy looking, Albert Einstein twin, 'im here to do my job & tats it' kind...

im teaching my class immunity this week. i got some students to be my human models. to act as bacteria, neutrophils and antibodies. it turned out quite ok i think. they somehow manage to wake up from their slumber :) hehehehe...

on another note...
- im planning for charles' bday which is a month away...it is too soon, but who cares. tats what great girlfren's do..plan ahead :)

- planning what to do for my semester holidays..yes, go green in envy as il be on holiday for more than a month. this will definitely be the bestest christmas ever!

adios..gtg..ive got a lesson to prepare for now..

im back...

well, its been a very long time since my last post. just like every other activity of mine, i lost interest in blogging..anyway, i dunt think there was anyone out there that was even reading my blog.
so watever, i dunt really care..
so wats new with me..

1. im working now..hooray to me..for finally getting a job & putting a stop to every1's concern that im continously studying..so yah, im working now..lecturing..i love the lecturing part..hate the marking papers part..unfortunately

2. im already swimming like a fish :) yippee me again..

3. i curled my hair..and i hate it now...its tiresome..although it does make me look good sometimes..did i just complement myself? oh no...

4. my Masters is still on hold..thanks to my really super busy supervisor..its not my fault..

5. going to start my PhD soon..i dun even know why im doing it..maybe coz i just am egoistic...and want to have a Dr infront of my name..is that even a reason to do it? hahaha..watever..

6. my family is fine

7. my frens are either married, going to get married, or talking about marriage..haiihh..

8. i need more frens..

9. ive not gone for a holiday in a very long time..which is unfortunate & crappy..

10. im learning to be a more matured person as i am now an educator...

11. i still do stupid things..and i still do get bored easily..

12. im still looking for new things to do..

ciao...