so wat???

so wat if i dunt write bout intelligent or interesting stuff? i like writing bout stupid things..i hate psycho-analysing things so i just end up writing bout dumb things la..at least i write...
so wat if i like writing bout myself? wat else is more interesting than a 25 year old female:)
so wat if i have a big forehead? coz im getting smarter la...
so wat if i like going to church? i want to be a good catholic, if u dunt want to, then i cant give two hoots!! but dunt condemn!! u have no right!!!
so wat if ive had d same boyfren for the past 6 years? ure just jealous!!!
so wat if i look awful in pics? its not ur face rite? then why d heck do u care? am i ur girlfren?
so wat if my dad told d world that im gonna do my PhD? he's proud of me, so lay off!!!
so wat if im still not working? am i asking you for my petrol money?
so wat if im still studying? am i using ur brains?
so wat if im dark? at least i have lesser chances of getting wrinkles or skin cancer:) bet u didnt noe tat rite?
so wat if im pampered? ure envious!
so wat if i like to whine? am i whinning to u?
so wat if i like to cry? am i using ur tear glands?
so wat if i dunt read the books that u read? at least i read..
so wat if i cant write as well as u? im sure u have better things to think about than my writing skills?
so wat if i like shopping? im not using ur hard earn money rite?
so wat if im into romance? i just like it la..cant seem to think of a witty remark:)
so wat if i like the people that u hate? i dunt share ur DNA, so dunt expect me to hate d people u hate!
so wat if ive had many admirers? hehehe..hahaha...hohoho...ure just fucking jealous!!!! go jump off the cliff! there's nothing u can do bout tat!!!
so wat if i cant speak Tamil? at least i dunt claim to be eurasian like some people do...tak sedar diri!!!
so wat if i hate gold? i just hate it la...
so wat if im sentimental? someone has to be rite?
so wat if i like order? tats just the way i am..
so wat if i like to get a tattoo? i think its interesting..people are just shallow bout tattoos and get d wrong idea bout it..
so wat if i wear short skirts? im thin..so i can wear watever i like!!!
so wat if im just like every other gal? i can be normal...there's no harm in tat...
so wat if people dunt read my blog? i noe that no one reads my blog..i dunt read their's too..:)
so wat if im average? i work hard even to be average...
so wat if im not witty? i still am able to make people laugh...
so wat if i do not have d patience? i just do not have d patience...
so wat if im frustrated? i just feel tat way...:( just stand by me..dunt give ur comments..i dunt want to hear it....i just need you there...tats all...
so wat? so wat? so wat? ya, so wat????????

here is a list of interesting things tat has been happening in my life...:)

* my research- which is super interesting..im actually trying to insert a human gene into the banana plant. im researching on the expression of the protein...cool rite??? :) dun look at me weirdly..it is cool...:)

*my swimming lessons- it is going on fine..except for the fact tat even after 3 lessons, im still scared of the 4 ft water:(

*my tmnet hotspot prepaid account- this is super cool..im like this cool chic..sitting at restaurants, having my meal while surfing the internet:) haiih...i cant help but beam :)

*my little stint in a Korean academy- im actually teaching Science to Korean kids..i love this job!! its fun..coz i get to see them squirm when i teach them bout sexual reproduction:)

. anger . frustration . hurt . broken heart . tears . sadness . dissapointed . fear . mental torture . emotional torture .

need i say more????

i just started my swimming classes 2 weeks ago..it was not too bad..besides the fact that we always end up with back and shoulder pain by the end of the lesson:) i realise that my fear for the water is so strong tat i always hesitate before attempting anything in the water. mind you, the water is only 4 feet and i am more than 5 feet! :)

why do i have fear for the water? let me highlight the whole web community on something that happened nearly 10 years ago...my family and i went to the waterfalls in Kota Tinggi, Johor. it was a beautiful day..the sun was shinning so brightly, the birds were chirping...it was all so glorious..when i, being the wise person that i always am, wanted to stand like Xena (The Warrior Princess) on a huge rock. and before i could attempt to do anything else brave, i slipped on that moss filled rock, slid down the rock and landed into the gushing water..and when i say gushing, i mean GUSHING!!!!! i was screaming and yelling!!! all i could ever think of at that time was..IM GONNA DIE, I HATE D WATER, IM GONNA DIE, IM NEVER GOING NEAR A WATERFALL EVER EVER IN MY LIFE!!! thank god, one of my very brave cousins manage to grab my leg before i went further...

and so people...tats my very sad story as to why i have a fear for water....:(

people never seem to understand whenever you tell that that ure frighten of the sea. they say things like.."aiyaa..u wont drown la..ure so tall..u can just try to walk a bit further away from the beach..im holding your hand rite? u wont fall la..." STUPID!!! DUNT U UNDERSTAND!!! IM BLOODY SCARED!!!!

and then there's the whole dumb ass thing that they do. throwing everyone into the water!! they somehow, cannot understand the fact that i am scared!!!! whenever i see any of my cousin's charging towards me, i run away from them as fast as my legs can carry me and find safety..which is behind my mum or dad...and if they manage to get me, they grab me and so very conviniently toss me into the sea...:( and when i manage to stand up, spit out the water from my mouth, wipe my teary eyes..i end up looking like a wet rug...:( and my cousins end up laughing their heads off at the pathetic sight of me! i end up as a subject for their cheap thrills!!!

so now, after 10 years..ive finally decided to face my fears..im going for swimming lessons. its not going very well..but from wat i was, this is progress for me...:) so to all you people who think tat its funny to throw people who are terrified into the water, well i have news for u, ITS NOT FUNNY!!!!

sitting in A&W now..(10.25am). and yes, i know its a bit early 2 b indulging in fast food, but if ure in my situation u'd understand. anyway, im not pigging out on burgers or root beers...im having a healthy hearty breakfast..u shuld try it, its quite good..(especially their banana muffin:) )

well, as in my friendster shoutout, MY HANDPHONE WAS STOLEN!!!! To that piece of crap that stole it, ive been cursing u ever since u stole my precious handphone from me! i cursed u when i was driving home & couldnt listen 2 my songs in my playlist! i cursed u when i didnt wake up on time as my phone now has a horrible tune as alarm! i cursed u when i passed every sony ericsson shop! my guess is, by now, u would have either landed in hospital coz of a very bad rash all over ur body, with puss oozing out! or ur wife or girlfren would have left u coz ure too ugly or because of the rash:) hahaha....the things i would do just to amuse myself!!!!!! ;)

so now, im using my mum's handphone..its ok la...but none can compare to my baby sony..haiihhh....(cursing my phone thief again!!!! ) i hope to get a new phone soon...at times like this, i wish i wasnt still studying! (why must i want to do my masters??? why oh why????)
ive set my eyes on sony ericsson W810i...d black and orange one...my mum told me 2 be patient, as she might get it for me:)

i hate d fact that even being 1/4 a century, i still have 2 depend on my mum...even tough i am earning a bit from my tuition classes, but i still do not have enough cash to buy fancy handphones at such short notice..maybe i might be able to get it, if i stop eating out, make my car move on water, start communicating using smoke signals with my boyfren (save my handphone bill), walk to UM, walk to Sri Gombak, drink water instead of ice lemon tea and do a whole lot of other things to save money..and by the time i have saved enuf, i would be another 5 years older!!! (cursing the thief again!!!)

oh well, the only hope i ever have at getting a new handphone is to be patient and hope that my mum would be an angel and buy me the phone..W810i, hold on baby, im coming soon...:)

im still at A&W (11.00 am), still have another hour to kill..

already in my supposedly final sem of my Masters program..if all goes well, i might be able to complete my research and thesis writeup by the end of this year..d research is so unpredictable...it may go smoothly for one week and d next week, it will go all crazy!!! i trully trully hope that d crazy period is over...i cant afford to sit here for another sem...its like there is a choir group singing in my head "ure 25...get on with it..."

A&W is pretty quiet now..how d heck can people drink rootbeer so darn early? dunt they feel guilty??? high concentration of sugar and gas so early in d morning is not gud people...coffee is better...:) not that its any good either...:) oh boy..im talking crap again...guess its d scambled eggs and banana muffin doing its trick..;)

how can people blog everyday..how come there are so many exciting things happening to only them and not boring people like me..or maybe they are more observant than me..how can they have a witty comments about everything that they observe? when i observe something, i just observe it, go home and tell everyone about it, tell charles about it and tats it..i dunt go psycho-analyzing it like some bloggers do...i guess, in short...IM JUST A BORING PERSON!!!! ouch...tat really hurts! ive finally embraced that fact...sad sad geradline....:(

ok la..i guess i better go..i think my post is a bit too long this time...which half of it is a load of crap:) so cheryl, once again: NO COMMENTS!!!! and charles: IM SORRY 4 BEING A PAIN..and I am independent...:)

ciao people..take care of ur handphones...:)