our pool moves..

its always fun to go out in a group..lots of laughter..lots of making fun..lots of giggles.

last saturday,i had my 1st group outing after a very long time..we had a go out with ur siblings, cousin and ur brother's best fren day:)

we played pool, watched 'i now pronounce u chuck and larry' and visited vani a.k.a. valencia:)

cheryl playing pool using a skill only mastered by pros..coached by justin of course:) but she still looks like a pro rite? ya..ya..justin..ure gud..i know..i can see tat..:) im gonna tell amma, where ure going during ur break..ure polishing ur pool skills instead of studying!
me, wit my ok pool skills..i think i played pretty well even with my rusted skills..hehehe

savisha..showing off her hidden talent in pool..we nowknow where she mastered her amazing pool moves:)
lau, justin's fren..the court jester:) we found out that lau has a hidden singing talent:)

and finally..we made it to vani's place..as always..the 2 cam crazy fans strike again! they look very much alike rite? and sorry vani for putting up this pic:)

my photo diary..

hola..
i was told by my boyfren tat my blog skin is very depressing..thus behold the change of my blog attire..and then he decided to add another comment:@ he said that my posts are depressing too!! what the heck? so..i decided to add more colour to my writing too..and wat better way to do it than to add more pics to my posts..:)



so charles and the rest of the world..this is me:)





and then there's my life in the lab and the 3rd best thing in my life..my books..(in first position would be my family and in second, my "comment giving" boyfren)


and then we have my sister..yes..the gifted writer of the family..i think we look alike la..:) but somewhere in her genes, god missed out in the cleanliness genes:)
loud..talkative..crazy..and yet so sensible and kind..:)



need i say more..? im sorry cheryl..i just had to put this pic in =)




and now we have my brother justin..we look very much alike as u can see..:) he insisted on wearing the cap! u shuld see him without the cap, his hair has a mind of its own:)
pampered..spoilt..emo just like me..with a heart of gold..:)










caught in action! justin's got the "poking" gene..hehehe















the 3 of us..we're like 3 clowns on the lose..we rock our house..cheryl's continues jabbering, justin's continues need to poke anyone in his radar and me screaming through the chaos..








im grateful to have them in my life..:)

touch screen

firstly..thanks abi for pointing out the obivious..:) i damn bodoh la..hehehe..

last thursday was a mad day for me..the day started off with me sending my dad to Assuntha for his usual check-up..then i headed back to the Plant Lab to find that another half of my banana plants have died..so i have all together..drum roll please...15 plants left..out of 70 plants! damn tissue culture! yes sheena..im on ur side now..I HATE PLANT TISSUE CULTURE!

then i went back to assuntha, picked my dad up, sent him back home, headed back to UM again and went to the Genetics Lab..once again..weird results from my PCR!

then i got drenched in the rain..with an umbrella! i looked like a wet dog..:( then i tot, i shuld treat myself..i went to Sakae sushi in bangsar village (cheryl, dunt tell amma..:) she'll flip! ) once again, i was alone, wet and hungry..*sigh*

i headed into the restaurant..the waiters were saying something in Japanese..i guess it means welcome la..nodded my head confidently..sat down..hey..they have the touch screens on every table..ya, cheryl has told me bout it..u can just 'touch' the screen to place ur order...so being the Malaysian that i am..i started touching the screen..touch..touch..touch..eh..rosak ke my touch screen? why ah..nothing's happening? then i looked around..where are all the waiters that greeted me just now? im hungry..then i saw a waiter, gave him my order and continued to look around for anything else to fidget..i took the wasabi, put it into the small sauce plate, added in the salty kicap..eh, where are the chopsticks ah? oh..there they are..alamak! wats this?? there's a mouse here la..and walaa...upon placing my fingers onto the mouse, i see the cursor moving on the konon-nye touch screen that "cheryl told me about"!!! oh god, oh god..look left look right..did they see me earlier jabbing the screen? even if they did, i wouldnt have seen them..they might be at the kitchen now, laughing their heads off at me! how am i ever going to go back there again? damn u cheryl for telling me tat tats a touch screen! damn me for being so idiotic!

oh good lord..im gonna be 25!

im going to be 25 in exactly 2 weeks..as i get older i feel that i have more regrets than ever bout many things in my life..i wish i can turn back time..i wish i can do it all over again (anything except my STPM)..i wish i can make all my wrongs right..60% of my regrets have been my education..and the other 40% is the person i have turned out to be..

i shuld have studied harder for my SPM (at least i would have easily gotten a scholarship and not be forced to sit for my STPM-which is f-ing difficult and it literally freezes ur brain cells)

i shuld'nt have given up so fast on my STPM (at least i would have gotten a better course for my degree)

i shuld have worked towards a first class honours in my degree (at least i would have been able to immediately work towards my PhD or gotten a full scholarship)

i shuld have been wiser when choosing the kind of Masters programme that i want to do (an MSc is far better than an M.Biotech)

i shuld have worked harder in my M.Biotech (though i felt as if i practically squeezed every brain cell of mine dry when doing my coursework)

i shuld have potrayed a better image to my siblings

i shuld have been a better daughter

i shuld have been a better girlfren to charles

i shuld have been a better Catholic

i shuld have been more patient

i shuld'nt have scratched my eyes so much (now i have the perpetual drunk look!)

i shuld'nt have eaten so much of McD (McD is addictive..its worse than coffee!!!)

i shuld'nt have gossiped so much (i cant help it la..when 2 or 3 are gathered there is bound to be gossips at hand!)

i shuld have been naughtier when i was younger (at least i would have more stories of my childhood..interesting stories..at least..*sigh*)

so this year..instead of having a resolution on new year's, im having a resolution for my 25th bday..so people..here goes..

do not regret bout the past..
be hapie with the choices i have made
work towards a better future
work towards being a better person

this includes..
*being a better daughter, sister, girlfren, fren, cousin,relative, student..etc..
*being more and more patient..(i really seem to lack in this area..its as if i lost or mutated that part of my gene)
*taking better care of myself
*eating healthily
*lessen my gossip sessions (ill try la..hehehe)

my never ending sadness...

when god takes away a person, it is actually a test for the rest of the family members..it is at times like this that u actually see a family being united. helping in the funeral preparations, praying for strength, crying together, sharing in the sorrow and pain of the lost loved one, trying their very best to lighten the family's burden (though no number of hugs or words of encouragement can lighten the pain of a lost person)..

arnold's passing..showed me how united my family was..i always knew i had a very close-knit family, but never did i think that only through death could i see this..:( as always, there were a few idiotic people that took his death as their cue to lash their "wise-ass comments"..we dunt need your 1/2 a cent comments! ure just plain stupid! idiotic! and judgemental! and please bring ur royal asses back to earth for you're not GOD!

the passing of arnold still comes as a shock not only for me but the rest of my family..but i guess, god had his own reasons for taking him away so soon..

we just cant stop talking bout him..i know that life goes on, but the very thought tat he's no longer here saddens me..he was only 17+ for pete's sake! rapist shuld die..murderers shuld die..not arnold...never arnold...

arnold raj...

31st August 2007 will be a day tat i will never forget for the rest of my life...arnold raj..my havoc, crazy, clowning, loving, talented and funny cousin passed away..and he was only 17+...d two days of crying was the worst ive ever felt in my entire life..and tats just me, a cousin feeling like crap..wat more my aunty, uncle, vani and mervin? wat more arnold's grandmother?

his accident is still a mystery..and yes, to all of you'll tats feeding us with ur version of the accident..i dunt get it!!! it doesnt make any sense!!! get this into ur system "the truth will prevail"

i keep recalling bout the last time i saw him..i was asking him if tats d time to get up! (it was 5pm and he was just getting up!) :) now i wish i had asked him if he was ok, or spoke to him longer, or even made him rap or beatbox for me:(

even at 18, he led a very colourful life..he was always at his height! creating some kinda chaos..at any party, you could always hear his voice..he was either making fun of someone, laughing or joking around..the proof of his eventful life was the turn up at his funeral...the church was packed!

to arnold..im sorry ur life ended this way..u had so much of potential in u..so much of love..so much of kindness..so much of everything..

may ur soul rest in peace...