my independence...:) and my new phone..hehehehe

i have a beautiful handphone..i have an amazing boyfren...im so hapie.......

this is a pic which i took from my new phone..:) i look like crap but cheryl looks nice (as always)
so people..frens, relatives, foes and pencuri handphones..yes, i am the owner of a very gempak sony ericsson S500i..its utterly gorgeous..and my utterly amazing boyfren bought it for me as an early birthday gift:) im so hapie..im so hapie..im so hapie...and yes, im so hapie..:)

this time im sitting at secret recipe SS2. eating fish n chips, drinking ice-lemon tea and awaiting the arival of my carrot slice:) yum...:) charles is on his way to Bali...:( bitting my lips and trying so hard to be this strong independent girlfren..but u and i both know the truth..u cant help but miss ur boyfren when he's miles away..:( no matter how much of a girl power supporter are u, no matter how independent u r, no matter how capable u r at being alone...deep down u wish ur loved-one is there beside u...:)

charles has often told me that i shuld learn to do things by myself..and not be so dependent on my frens and of course on him as well..and 2 b honest im not so much as the type that would have a meal by myself in a restaurant.i have gone for shoppings by myself but tats coz i think and decide better by myself.frens and family around me especially during christmas shopping is a total no-no as i end up getting frustrated and being very indecisive!

so anyway, back to the matter at hand..can i really be independent? well, i seem to shock myself..this past year..to be exact, ever since i started my research, i have been nothing but alone..(and lonely la..*sigh*) and now ive come to the extend where i feel like i actually dunt mind having a meal alone, going window shopping or the actual shopping, checking out mph for books, shoe-shopping, etc...

all i need is cash, credit card and my laptop (if the place where im going has internet access)...so charles, u better be damn proud of me coz i dunt bug u as much as i use..:) i have yet to achieve the height of independence which is going for a movie 'alone'..just typing this sentence out is giving me the chills...:( i think i am very far from achieving tat la..and plus, i seriously do not want to achieve tat kinda independence...its too cold and lonely...

i love charles for getting me a new handphone for my birthday!!! my baby..my darling..my sweetie...:) and for spoiling me rotten...hehehe...

i look like cookie monster thanks to my unruly eyebrows! my hair looks like someting dead on my head! my skin looks so dull! i feel like shit! my life is like shit! my work in d lab is depressing! my life at home is like hell! charles is taking mighty long to reply my email! my back is aching thanks to d stupid chair in d lab! i hate sitting at starbucks coz its f-ing expensive! i hate burger king coz its f-ing fattening! i hate bangsar coz getting a parking there is like finding a buried treasure! i hate charles for going on a holiday without me! i hate being always left out of everything! i hate driving everyday! i hate d hot weather! i hate! i hate! i just plain hate everything!

of most guys and only some gals..:)

yes charles..ure rite! gals are jealous beings..they are territorial..they control ur life..once they dig their nails into ur flesh, they never let go..they hold on to u and tie a leech around ur neck and ure destined to be their unpaid slave whereby freedom will be a distant memory..a hope thats beyond ur reach..

guys on the other hand..are god sent..they are beautiful creatures with a heart so pure and chaste..their presence make our life beautiful and worth living..they walk on this earth with an ultimate destiny.."to make women happy"

YA RITE!!

GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE JACKASSES..AND only some GALS WILL BE JENNYASSES

i spoke to Jaclyn Victor on the phone yesterday!!!!!!!
im so darn happy!!!!

d human mind...

have you ever wondered how some people are so gud at creating a gud impression? its like they pre-plan every action of theirs so tat ultimately they end up 'looking' like d nice person or d innocent one or d person who could never hurt a fly...

i sometimes wonder how can they know how to react so diplomatically every single time..even when the situation is against them, they never show it in their faces..its as if they have already thought of all the consequences if they react in a negative manner..they know wat to say, wat not to say..wat to do, wat not to do..who to be nice to, who to ignore..and mind u, these actions of theirs pay off in the long run..coz in the end, they are the 'nice ones'..

it amazes me how naiive ive been all these years..i have never thought of being nice to a person just coz i will be in their gud books..if im ever nice to a person its coz i just want to be nice..tats it! no ulterior motives to tat...guess im not tat far-sighted..*sigh*

u have nothing...and yet u think tat u own the Bahamas! :)
u speak so highly of urself...and yet u cant even get a minimum qualification
u look down at others...when the rest of us have achieved more than u can possible achieve in a lifetime
u laugh and jeer at us...and yet, the mirrors shatter at ur sight:)
u are probably gud at one thing and u brag bout it till thy kingdom come....imagine how much more we can brag!!
u make ur presence felt in a hurtful way...when the rest of us make our presence felt, cherished and remembered
u will probably have frens...but will u still have them when ure at ur lowest?

u are the lowest jack-ass anyone has ever known..and yet you will continue to haunt us...we will remain quiet and endure ur spiteful remarks for tats the type of people we are..we will never stoop down to ur level..the level of cow-dung and cat shit!!

im suppose to be angry!! not u!!!!